I am a fan

I’ve been a fan of the Carpenters for ages. Yes, I am old and sad. Little did I know that way back when I was listening to their songs that I would grow up to live the friggin lyrics.

The Carpenters had real feeling lyrics to their music unlike today’s crap. I can pick out points of my life and relate them to various tunes. Today the songs have no tunes and heaven forbid they have a lyrical sense. It’s all about beat and nothing else.

Anyway, I’m feeling very “Desperado” right about now. Yes, it was an Eagles song first but I relate more to Karen and her plights. And since she died for her sins I understand how desperate times can be.

I also know that if she had the chance at a normal life that she would have never succumbed to the fate she did. Once you have the child it is a mark of nature that you preserve yourself in order to preserve the child. I think she gave up honestly. I think she was in a state not so unlike I was when I went out of my box to seek help. I could have easily ended up in the box that she is in. I wonder if the impending child years from that point had an impact on my still being here. That maybe he will grow into something the world can be proud of? I refuse to think otherwise!